Sorting it out
I spent a good long while on the phone with Draco yesterday, talking about what works and what doesn’t. I told him that the way we have been doing things, just isn’t working anymore.
It’s no secret that we’ve had some problems with him working out of town. Lack of communication has been a big problem. Ok, let me correct that, I have been attempting to communicate, but I feel like he just hasn’t been hearing me. I guess that’s one of the pitfalls of a 16 year relationship. At some point, one or both people stop listening.
Anyway, I told him that things aren’t working this way. There is nothing I can do about him working out of town. He says he’s going to find another job working in town, and he may. Rumor control says the company may be in transition, and those transitions may change things, but we’re not certain what. There are a lot of “ifs” and “maybes” running around, but it’s like I told him, I can’t live my life, or build a new one, on” ifs” and” maybes”. I also told him that I don’t feel that it’s fair for him to make all the decisions about our life here, when he’s never here.
For 16 years, I’ve let him rule the roost. He’s had final say (and veto power) on anything and everything. That was fine when he was here to deal with things, but now he’s not. I’m the one having to deal with it all, and I think that I should have more say in what’s going on. I also told him that I feel like he’s no longer making decisions based on our (or my) best interest. That his decisions are based on what he does and does not want to deal with. That’s not fair to me.
I must admit, I expected a fight. I expected him to flip out and for us to go through a power struggle over it all, but he didn’t. He actually admitted that some of his recent decisions have been based on him not wanting to deal with this or that right now, without much thought to what is best for me, or what I need or want.
We basically came to the agreement that I will stop bitching about him working out of town (I told him that he knows I don’t like it and wish he would get a job here, but me bitching about it all the time isn’t going to change anything), and I will start having control of what’s happening here. He will agree to whatever decisions I make (like I have him for the last 16 years), as long as I keep him informed on what I’m doing so that he knows what’s going on when he’s home on the weekends.
With that settled, I made the decision to come back to WordPress for the millionth time. My online bestie, @PonderingMama is probably going to kill me for moving again (she’s the one that put together this design for my blog over on Blogger). Luckily, I’m well versed in WordPress, and I was able to duplicate the design here with no trouble at all.
Why did I come back? That’s actually kinda complicated to answer.
For starters, I have to admit that I’ve never cared much for Blogger. I’ve been over there off and on, and while some people swear by them, I just can’t get a good vibe happening. My blog was beautiful (thanks to @PonderingMama), everything looked right, but I’m big on energy, and I just couldn’t get a good feeling happening.
WordPress does seem a little more complicated, but once you get used to it, it’s actually much simpler to navigate. I had my hosted blog through WordPress about a year ago and loved it. I cried when it messed up and went “poof” to wherever blogs go when they go “poof”.
Also? I’m about to move and I’m not sure what my internet situation will be till I get a few things straightened out, and the WordPress app on my phone is so much better and easier to work that my Blogger app. The Blogger app is constantly crashing on me and I blogged from my phone on WordPress for months and never had a problem.
And, there is the upcoming thing with the business. I want to have hosting for my blog again eventually and I will need a website for my business. I can’t afford to pay for hosting in two places and WordPress has a better hosting setup than Blogger and I hope to have my website for my business and my blog attached so it’s not so much to keep up with either.
I’ve had more hits on my blog today, while I was “moving in” than I’ve had in a month on Blogger.
So, for all those reasons, I am here, and I’m actually happy to be here. If I’m going to rebuild my blogging empire, (Ha-ha! That’s even funny to me!) then I feel that here is where that will happen. I sure hope so anyway. J