Trying something new and a Sunday Dump and Power Animals
It’s no secret that while I love WordPress, their Android App leaves much to be desired, so I’m trying something different. We’ll see how it goes.
So far, I like that I can add colored text, but we’ll see if that stays when I publish. I don’t like that I don’t see a way to schedule posts…hmmm.
So, Mini-Me has been home a week (just over), and so far, things are going mostly okay. There have been a few bump-ups, which I was expecting, but so far, they haven’t been completely horrible.
Her and Draco seem to be repairing some of the damage Mini-Me has done to their relationship, and although they still sometimes bicker, they’re also laughing and spending time together again, which does my heart good.
Last night, I did something I rarely do. I got a little drunk.
There is a reason this is rare. I tend to say what’s on my mind even more under the influence of alcohol than normal (I don’t have a very good filter for what I should and shouldn’t say under the best circumstances).
Anyway, Draco is an artist, and Mini-Me is an aspiring one, and she has been asking Draco to do a particular drawning for her for a while. He says he will, but he’s also the king of procrastination and never gets around to it. (He’s been reading-which is new- and playing Assasian’s Creed in all his free time.)
Yesterday was another promised dead-line missed and she got upset. after their “talk”, Draco and I went outside and I told him what I thought. Quite bluntly.
We didn’t argue because Draco heard the truth in what I said, but I know it could have been handled better had I not been drinking.
In other news, my Saturday trip to the library has yielded some interesting results. I picked up a book on Shamanism and Power Animals and have gotten almost half-way through it. It has somewhat changed my definitions on totem animals and I realized my Power Animal is not what I would have thought, but that is what I should have thought.
Let me explain.
Given the explination in the book, there are a number of ways to figure out if you already have a Power Animal, including some questions you can ask. Wanting an unbiased opinion, I asked Draco what he thought. His answer left me shaking my head at first, but as he explained his reasonings, I began to see it.
Left to my own assumptions, I would have automatically said the Wolf and been done. They have always fascinated me and I felt my first kinship with it when I was a child. Asked for a different answer and I would have claimed the Raven. I have an adult kinship with them, they are sacred to the Goddess Hecate, and I have felt drawn to Her service since my mother passed. The Ravens have been calling and watching since she became ill (at least more noticably). I could have also said Owl, which have followed me through my entire adult life.
Draco said none of these things. Draco said, “the Tiger”.
I’m sure I looked at him with a confused expression. I know I felt confused.
But as he explained, I thought. I have white tiger figures packed in storage that haven’t seen daylight in years. The one animal I have tattooed on my body is a white tiger on my right shoulder. I also have this:
on my phone.
Why wouldn’t I think Tiger?
So, I spent most of the morning reading about Tigers as Totems and Power Animals and I realize that it makes sense.
I’m working on a series of posts about my Power Animal and my Spirit Animals (wolf, owl, raven) and how they have effected my life, but that will have to wait until I finish them.
For now, I am wishing my tigers were not packed up nearly 3 hours away and I intend to do some intentional dreaming tonight and communicate with the spirit of the Tiger and see if he will offer me any insight.