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You Should Be There #PYHO

Today I’m joining in with Shell for Things I Can’t Say.

I sit and think back over my life. At the times you were there, the times you weren’t, and the times you should have been. I think of the moments in life when I have needed you more than anyone or anything, and you weren’t there.

I wear the knowledge of this pain everyday, but especially now, as I need you again, and still you aren’t there.

Throughout my life, you have been many things to me, and I to you, but I always believed in my heart that we had a special bond that was just ours. One that defied everything, including the disapproval and jealousy of her.

So many times, I withstood her wrath of not being the favorite in my heart. I absorbed her vicious comments, her hurtful words, and lost her without ever knowing her love or approval, in part, because of my love for you.

Now, the pain I couldn’t deal with months ago consumes my heart. In spite of the hurt between us, I loved her too. I am alone with my pain because I don’t have you to turn to, and that is another pain.

I pick up the phone, knowing that even if you answer, you are too deep in yourself to help me now. I feel disillusioned, I feel let down, I feel abandoned by the one person I never expected it from.

You know the truth of the life she gave me, yet you deny it in honor of a memory that is false. The person you claim she was only ever existed in your mind. You deny me my truth to protect someone that never loved anyone more than she loved herself. When did I come to mean so little, or was your love for me only a by-product of your love for her? Did our bond only ever exist in the mind of a frightened child and desperate adult?

Yesterday, I picked up the phone again, not certain what to say if you answered. Uncertain even of how to talk to you anymore. Who are you to me now that she’s gone? Or have I become just another memory to you?

Raven Moon

*This post is an attempt at healing. Since the loss of my mother, my family had completely fallen apart. Right now, I’m trying to work through my feelings about the only farther I ever had. A man who was once my God-Father become step-parent when I was 10. I have been a “Daddy’s Girl” almost my whole life. The separation since Mom passed is ripping my heart out, especially with the holidays at hand.

Ten Thought Tuesday

My awesome sister over at Ponderings of a Middle-Aged Mom had decided to resurrect Ten Thought Tuesday and I thought I’d join in with my own. Here we go!

10. My heart goes out to the people effected by Hurricane Sandy. It had been a devastating experience for so many. I wish everyone trying to recover all the best!

9. I’m excited about tomorrow but totally bummed that I forgot to buy candy. I don’t know if there will be trick-or-treaters, but I so wanted candy just in case.

8. My ex-MIL is a bitch and that’s all I’m going to say about it right now.

7. Over-all, this move has been such a good thing. I’m so glad we did it!

6. Between trying to get over being sick and the weather, I haven’t gotten out to get pics for a Samhain post.

5. Being without TV and regular internet has been hard.

4. I miss my WoW game more than a grown woman should.

3. Also? I do miss my family. I have caught myself stress-eating today.

2. But, I’ve still managed to lose another 2 lbs since last week.

1. It must be said. Ignorant people that spread hate and fear piss me off!

So, that was my random. Run over and check our Stasha’s and even share your own with us!

Blessings,

Fire Fae

New Vibe On Life

Today is update post, but I’m also going to be trying something new.  Each day (I’m going to try to post everyday) I’m going to draw a card from my Tarot deck for myself.  Regardless of what I post, I am going to include the card I drew and what I feel it means for me.  Here’s today’s card…

The Herbal Tarot By Michael Tierra

The Six of Swords is a positive card.  It represents finding solutions to problems.  This is a good card for me today, as I have had a lot on my mind lately.  I’m thankful to know that even though I have not reached the shore yet, my journey towards solving some issues may be at hand.  It could also have something to do with the topic that is most on my mind this morning.

A note about Vervain.  Vervain has been used in the treatment of ulcers and I happen to have a bleeding ulcer that’s been acting up.  No small coincidence there!  Guess I need to get a handle on that!

I have decided that it’s time for me to start thinking seriously about my health.  Since the death of my Grandfather some years ago, I have not been much of a “modern medicine” kind of girl.  What happened with my Mother this year, seemed to cement that for me.  Instead, I turn to herbalism most of the time for remedies to what ails us and I know that living a healthier life-style helps those herbs (and my body) do what it’s supposed to do.

With that said, I have joined up with Get Off Your Broom to do the Fall Into Fitness Challenge!

This challenge is a little different, in that it will have a Pagan twist to it.  We’ll be doing Element work as we go and doing Pagan challenges as well.  I’m all excited to be joining up to do this!  Check-ins are on Sundays and it will run to November 30th.  I hope you’ll come and join me in this challenge to get healthy!  At the very least, leave me some comment luv on Sundays to help cheer me on!
And, I’ve joined SparkPeople to help me keep track of things like calories.  If you’re a member, you can find me there!
So, that’s today’s post.  Hopefully, tomorrow I will get this up a little earlier, but life off the computer has interfered today in the form of Mini-Me’s 19th birthday and L’s Mom having surgery.
Hope everyone has had a Blessed Day! )0(
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Writer’s Workshop ~ I don’t wanna grow up!

This week, Mama Kat has asked us to list the 7 worst things about being an adult and at this point in my life, it’s a very easy list.

1.  Feeling responsible for everyone and everything.  I always feel like the world is resting on my shoulders.  Although I know it’s not true, I often feel like everyone’s problems are either my fault or my responsibility.

2.  Making the hard choices.  Since Mom passed a few weeks ago, I have been faced with many decisions I’ve had to make, not only for myself, but for my husband and father as well.

3.  Being the bad guy.  Being an adult also means that after you’ve made all these decisions because of these feelings of responsibility, you often have to tell people things you know they don’t want to hear.

4.  Bills.  Wouldn’t it be great if none of us had to pay bills and could just spend our hard-earned money on the things we want and love?

5.  Aches and pains.  The closer I get to 40, the more things hurt.  It never used to matter what kind of mattress I had, now I wake up off and on all night having to reposition because this or that hurts.

6.  Not enough “Me Time”.  I remember being bored somewhere in the neighborhood of 99% of my childhood.  Now, I’d kill for the time to be truly bored.

7.  Dealing with grown children.  You think once the kids are grow up, parenting is over, but all it really means is that you still hate what they do but you can’t do a damn thing about it.

So, that’s my 7, what’s yours?

Mama’s Losin’ It

Wordless Wednesday ~ Bald Rock

Joining up for Wordless Wednesday with a picture of the creek at Bald Rock close to my house.

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